There are some things I am very good at. I’m good at grabbing everybody’s attention when someone needs everybody in the room to stop talking at the same time. I’m good at putting melted butter on popcorn. I’m really good at not keeping a bunch of junk in my house. I’m good at organizing. Everything in my house has a spot it belongs in and it makes everything right in my world.
There are also things I am not good at. I’m not good at math. I am not good at exercising. I always question whether or not I am using the machine the right way or if my form is right. Also, I can’t cycle. I tried that crazy class and it is not something I am good at. I’m also not good at waiting.
Waiting is probably the worst concept ever invented. It wasn’t actually invented. It just comes with life. You have to wait for things because you can’t speed up time. I’ve lived in a city my entire life. A city where nothing ever closes and I have access to basically anything I need within 10 miles. Short car rides were the only thing I knew unless I was going out of the state. One time, I went to visit family who lived in a small town. They were a small town population wise but land size, they were huge and it took 15-20 minutes to get anywhere. I fell asleep on almost every car ride. My aunt was concerned about me getting my driver’s license. In my city, I was already used to getting things quickly that I could barely stand a longer car ride. Now, with technology and delivery services, I don’t even have to leave my house to get what I need and I can have it within an hour or two. The things I can’t get same day, there is Amazon Prime with two-day delivery. We are not a culture of waiters.
The beauty of things we are not good at is that we can work on them to become good at them. God will take what you aren’t good at and give you situations where you have the opportunity to grow there. I say opportunity because sometimes, I don’t always take it. Sometimes, I’ve had to learn a lesson two or three times before I really caught on to my learning opportunity. I’m not talking about gifts or talents here. I am not musically inclined at all. I cannot sing on key and I cannot play an instrument. I don’t think I’m supposed to be good at these things and I don’t think any amount of practice will make me better. (I’ve tried.) If it’s a characteristic Christ embodied though, you bet your bottom you’re going to get opportunities to grow in it. We’re called to be Christ-like and show His love to the world. God’s love is many things, patience is probably at the top of the list.
I know it’s at the top of the list because 1 Corinthians 13:4, the love paragraph, starts with “Love is patient.”
Waiting and patience go hand in hand. They are twin brothers if you really think about it. If you don’t like waiting, you are probably not very patient. I’m not. I have a few areas in my life where my patience knows no bounds. Those areas I attribute to Jesus because outside of the specifics of those areas, I have next to zero patience. It’s really a good growth opportunity for me. If I want to be a better example of God and His love, I need to learn to be patient. I need to have patience outside of those few areas in my life.
God put me exactly in that situation. I’m in a season right now where I am waiting. I am (hopefully) patiently waiting on answered prayers. I’m waiting on a miracle. I’m waiting on answers. I’m waiting for guidance. I’m waiting on next steps. It’s a whole bunch of waiting. I probably haven’t been the most patient about it either. As I said earlier, I’m not the greatest waiter. Nothing in my life has ever taken this long, we’ve always had the answer or the miracle a lot sooner than what I’m dealing with now.
I’m thankful for God’s word for me to lean on when I feel hopeless and like the waiting will never end. I’m thankful that even though I don’t see it, I know that He is working for my good. God isn’t holding the best back from me. Even though I am waiting and while this might not be in the timeframe I would want, God’s timing is better than my own. It’s a fact that I know that I am constantly forgetting. He sees the whole picture while I only see the tiny little bit of today in front of me. The one thing I won’t forget is that God has never failed me. He has always provided, comforted and guided me when I needed it. He has told me numerous times in many ways that I am in a season of waiting and patience. I just lean on God more on the days I get frustrated. Lean on God in your times of struggle, he is there to hold your hand through it, my friends. Just trust Him. It’s so simple yet so difficult. I get so wrapped up in my head and my fears. Which is why I go back to the facts that I know: God is good. God has never abandoned me. God has always guided me through my trials and my lessons, even when I was being stubborn. God forgave me. God saved me.
Hang on to what you know to be true of the Lord and the enemy cannot bring you down. Hang on to the truth, God is there. God loves you. Write it down somewhere if you have it. I make lists of facts in my journal when I am going through it and it feels like my brain is going too fast. I stick to the facts. I lean on the facts of God and remember that he is bigger than my trails and my lack of patience.